Choice

Not too sure about flowers...

But totally agree on friends and food part

 

To add in one more...

In fact the most important one...

Choose to spend time wisely with family...

The most precious treasure in life

Dou Dou

This is how Dou Dou looks like when he newly joined us.

Still allowed in the home and super duper obedient I must say.

Very adorable.

 

This is how DouDou looks like now.

This was taken when we discovered that he was poisoned.

Sorry DouDou, we didn't  know how to take good care of you.

Stay strong please?

 

His tongue was jutted out sideways, he couldn't retract it.

Later on, his condition got better when I visited him in the clinic yesterday.

Still waiting for doctor's advise on blood test report, due today.

I only knew that DouDou is already 9 years old.

1 dog year = 7 human years.

 

 

 

 

Not Really A Feel Good Day

Yesterday I felt great. Because I get to visit my ex-colleagues and they are doing well. The company is doing well. I get to play badminton. I get to eat my chiam chiam. Yesterday was tiring but amazingly good.

Today I felt ok in the beginning. Went to market with mom, bought few office dresses and had breakfast. Then we began the hunt to lengthen bridal dress. Finally settled as well. When we reached home, the nightmare began.

I saw Dou Dou lying down in the middle of our car porch without any intention to move away. Usually he will move out of our way. Mom suspected that he might have swallowed the rat bait. Usually he is very active and will run around the car or house. This time he was merely lying there.

There was some bubble froth next to his mouth. He can't really walk and had serious muscle spasm. It was very heart wrenching to see him in such agony. Called a part time retired government vet. He asked to give DouDou young coconut water or salted water. Another vet friend advised to give charcoal tablet and send to vet.

Mom prepared salted water and I went to buy young coconut water and charcoal tablet. He was very reluctant to take them so we sent him to vet. Dr Lim said that he looked very weak and his condition might not be due to rat poison.

Final decision was to let him stay in the clinic, with continuous water drip and blood test to diagnose. If his condition is not positive, we shall put him to sleep. I went away to wipe my tears. Pets are to be loved. Not to be treated this way.

Having pet or baby is a big responsibility. If can't take proper care of them, better don't have one. I am pissed off to hear that my sister's friend gave DouDou away when she was expecting a baby. I am angry when we didn't put in effort to take good care of DouDou. In terms of hygiene, diet, quality time to play with him etc.

Everytime I come home, he will be eagerly wagging his tail and circling us to get our attention. Shows how little time we have for him. Really felt awful when comparing his current condition to the time when he was brought to us. Totally different. Now he is much thinner, with very untidy coat of hair and ticks everywhere. Really pathetic and not much different from stray dog except that he has food, water and shelter.

Brought mom to Raja Uda afternoon roadside stalls to try the laksa, cendol, ice kacang and fried spring roll with other fried delicacies. Weather was not too hot so we didn't sweat much. I used to go there often. But somehow it doesn't feel the same anymore. Maybe I was affected by DouDou or how I always complain without doing much to change thing. Then we went to SenHeng in Raja Uda for mom to make an appointment for washing machine which is still under warranty to be repaired.

Next, I went to settle opening online account for Public Mutual account. Went to NRD to enquire about procedure for marriage registration. Called dear in the middle of his sleep when I couldn't find his passport details in my hp. After I called him, I noticed that it was in my company hp, poor dear! Then went to BM Public Bank to get car grant and to enquire about car insurance rate but was told that it is already past office hour.

Went to fetch the kids but before that, we got to get rid of the big carton box which we used to carry DouDou to the vet. It was a bad decision. I thought that there will be a big rubbish bin but couldn't find one. So I asked mom to drop the carton next to an empty spot near a house before fetching the kids few houses away.

While waiting for the kids, a Malay guy in motorcycle fiercely told me off to remove the box else he will report us and took photo of JS car which I was driving. I felt so horrible for being such an irresponsible litter bug. I quietly drove back to the spot to flatten the box and carried it away in the car back home. Why couldn't I do that in the first place? OMG, what kind of mentality am I having?

Finally we went to pick up my bridal dress with a different lace extension. Will try it later. Today is a tiring day. Been busy for the whole day. Roller coaster ride of emotion. From filial to excited, shocked, and sad to guilty and ashamed. With marriage, work and own self-conscience to deal with, I felt like giving up pretending wanting to be positive （when I am actually a negative person）and just drop down everything that I am doing and do nothing.

I have this tendency to blame myself without taking action. Well, be it. It had been awhile since I wrote in this blog and today is the day where I just want to blurt out everything.