Fast forward and I am now into week 24 of pregnancy. A lot has happened since then but definitely I found new life in second trimester. Morning sickness stopped and I was able to eat and drink more than before though still considered as small quantity by most. Better than nothing. 

The race is on. Friends offering advices, donating their baby items and my tummy is finally showing. Called a babysitter today and found that it isn't easy and cheap to raise a kid especially for first 2 years. Started surveying among friends and seemed that you need a minimum of RM2-3k per month for newborn if you hire nanny (day care), use infant formula, diapers, subscribe to insurance, plus some vaccination cost. 

I was really caught off guard and was totally unprepared for this. The reality really struck me hard. Been too complacent and relaxed I guess. No wonder not many want to have many kids at this age. Especially for us who wouldn't want to burden our own family or mom.

We hired confinement centre and nanny because I wouldn't want my mom's time to be tied up. Yet Yin told me don't settle everything on my own and spend more time with mom as she is feeling lonely. Made me realize that my independence may lead mom to feel left out though it could be a common thing for parents in retirement age. 

Never a person who is very warm and open. Hence the idea of close family tie was not that common for me. Never the type of person to call back home often etc. Perhaps being a mom may change me. Let's see.