Soul Searching

P.A.S.S.I.O.N.

An easy 7 letters word.

Something I am searching for right now.

Be it...

In work...

In relationship...

In life...

Recently I seem to ponder a lot,

Searching for answers which I can't find,

Probably I didn't search seriously,

Perhaps I've reached the junction,

Junction where I've felt stagnant,

Finding my way,

To regain whatever self-drive purpose,

Or kick in life,

Which I am lacking now.

Is this called soul searching?

A search for something,

Where I have a sense of belonging?

How will I know if I won't feel the same again,

After few more years down the road?

Is this normal?

Having several junctures in life,

Where you have to do some soul searching...

I don't call this emo anymore,

There was this something inside me,

Which triggers all these.

Just like when I was contemplating a job transfer,

Where my rational mind says go,

While my heart sends me a signal to reconsider,

Where in the end I did listen to my heart,

Can it be that my heart is trying to tell me something again?

I don't believe that I felt stagnant already,

It must be that I lack something,

Perhaps a drive or something,

Maybe I am searching if this is what I want,

Something which I myself can't answer yet.

I know that if I don't settle this,

It will surely crop up again sooner or later.

Do I need a change?

Do I have the courage?

I just need an enlightened moment,

Once I get the answer,

I know my path will be clear,

No more vagueness.

Of course it can still change.

A plan is after all still a plan.

Soul searching still...