#42 - Negative Feelings

13.03.2010

Started out good but ended feeling down.

Planned to wake up at 9.30am this morning cos slept at 2am ytdy. Somehow, Domo called (after knowing that I am awake, of course) and informed that she may not join the Turtle gathering (minus Niu) today despite her being the organiser as she had to replace her colleague at work. Somehow, she managed to reject his request and was able to join us again.

I cleaned the house (always messy with the kids around) and mopped the floor. Ain’t the mopped water dirty enough. No wonder the floor felt sticky. Got sweaty and washed hair so cancelled plan to ride motor to Auto City to meet up with Boey and Huei. Drove car instead, so didn’t exchange the car with motorbike at my bro’s workplace. Halfway driving, he called to inform that he need to use the car, at 1pm. That’s weird, thought he works till 5.30pm. I jz said can’t return car to him, currently at Auto City. If want, I can try to return back to Kulim by 6pm. He said no need, so fine. Was thinking if he needs to use car by 6pm, I won’t tumpang Huei car to Penang. Will drive instead.

Since bro said no need, I left my car at Auto City and tumpang Huei’s car to Penang to meet up with Domo. But I got mentioned that I need to be back to Auto City by 8pm the latest as I need to fetch my mom from shop at 9pm. In the car, Boey was quiet and seemed to be in bad mood, maybe cos I was late? Sorry, Boey…Later in the car, I took out two key chains bought in Cameron. Boey chosed the ‘morning glory’ while Huei took ’strawberry’. But both Boey and Huei said the ‘morning glory’ was actually ‘jambu air’. They even said I always mistaken things. Perhaps la, but I still think it’s morning glory

Took graduation robe for Niu and had lunch at Bali-Bali. Then head to QBM to hunt for convo gift for Niu. Halfway hunting, bro called and said he wants to use car. Make sure I return Kulim by 6pm. @$@#$%%%@$%…Jz now said no need, now need. What do you want me to do? Few SMSes exchanged with ‘moron’, ’stupid’ etc. Final say, 8pm must be back in Kulim. Made me bad mood.

Had to inform Turtles that I had to reach Auto City by 7pm and inevitably Huei and Boey had to follow suit since I tumpang Huei’s car. Really felt sorry about that. Huei can’t eat her bubur cha cha at Lorong Susu (not the actual name, Huei named it herself) and we all felt it was too early to disperse too. Our dinner was at 5pm at Sushi King, really too early. Nevertheless, they had to tolerate my time. Was touched and grateful cos I know that they don’t want to leave so early. Had to thicken my face and act like nothing happened lo!

Bought watch for my bro’s birthday gift. I owed him. His bday was actually last 08/03/2010. When reached Auto City, jz realised that I didn’t lock my car. Lucky it was still there! But it was weird, as I remembered I locked it. I even dropped my hp for that. Perhaps I unlocked the car that time. Nevertheless, I drove the car after can’t find anything suspicious. Thank God for the blessing! Was adamant not to talk to bro when reached home. His SMS was extremely rude.

OK la, maybe I was to be blamed partly as I didn’t inform him that I want to use car. But he also didn’t inform ma. Nevertheless, it really spoilt my mood now. When reached home, I overheard that his friend will fatch him pula. Asked me to fetch mom from shop. What the… All the troubles I caused to my friends, all that for nothing? I didn’t say anything. Just felt sad as I didn’t handle this properly. People say ignorance is a bliss. In this case, I will say ’silence is a bliss’ too. Jz told Kelvin that I felt like going up hill or somewhere quiet and serene (maybe Botanical Garden or any park), feel the soothing breeze and sit there doing nothing for about 30 min.

Of course, it’s just a thought la. Night time dark liao lo. But I am really looking forward to Botanical Garden for the orchid exhibition. But no one wanna go with me and my schedule for this week and next week is full already. The Orchid exhibition is only from 13/03 to 21/03.. Hope can make it somehow. Somewhat feel that we must be close to nature despite our busy schedules (always facing pc only).

Went to fetch mom from shop after chatting with Kelvin for a while. Waited for the mamak to fry noodles (the one opposite Kulim traffic police station) and pasembur. Don’t know who in the world order so many pasembur one short, causing me to wait for a total of 25 minutes. Come back home, when eat it, I felt that the pasembur is really very so-so only. I have eaten many more which is nicer than this one. Nevertheless, the end of today doesn’t seem too bad after all Not as bad as I would have expected…. My mood recover very fast hor? (Must learn to let go of negative feelings fast, if not I will get affected badly).

Comment:

> 15.03.2010 (jyyyin)

yan yan yan…u will get ur car soon