18.07.2010
Had walked up Tokun Hill ytdy and today but with different friends. I like to hike with CMY cos we both like challenges and would usually try to walk up to the 3rd stop, also the final stop. But ytdy we tried till 2nd stop only as I had a gathering later on and the weather was gloomy. And the timing was just nice. After we got down the hill, the rain started pouring down.
Thank God! Another reason why I like walking with her is, we can talk about many things and we never seem to run out of topics. She is a very real person and always offer advice and is patient to listen to my woes. I did the same to her but perhaps I am not a very good advisor lah. Thanks CMY for everything, I mean it.
For the gathering at Hooi Kee Steamboat Restaurant in Taman Sungai Rambai, we had great fun updating each other and had a great laugh too. I haven’t felt so ‘open’ for such a long time already. We decided to go to Auto City in search of the Coldstone Ice Cream store which was mentioned in the email forwarded to me (and I even forwarded it to others), but to no avail.
NSH said she never thought it was in Auto City, Prai as the building design doesn’t seem like it. I didn’t think too much when I forwarded the email. I jz thought perhaps I seldom go to Auto City and I didn’t notice there is a shop named Owen’s next to it (as shown in the picture). We concluded there is no such shop there. And true enough, when I reached home and searched online, it was in US. Damn! I should have checked the authenticity of the email before forwarding it, hence the display msg in MSN to rectify my blunder. Sorry!
This morning, went to Tokun again. Supposedly there should be 6 of us but in the end only 3 of us went. One can’t be contacted, probably sleeping, one needed to service the car while the last one had to rush to KL to visit a hospitalised grandma. So Nuri, Kim and I started our hike and it was not bad. We made it to the 2nd stop and I joked to Kim that we shall conquer the 3rd stop for the next round. She gaped at me. Haha.. I know she can do it.
We were talking about how to handle ppl at work and how to protect ourselves at work by trying to make everything in black and white and having a backup for ourselves etc etc. Which left me to ponder, how many ppl are really true nowadays? I don’t think I am true to myself too. The society nowadays is such that there has to be some bit of hypocrisy in everyone, in order to survive. We can’t trust everyone, not to mention 100%. But I remembered a quote “To believe is dangerous but to not to believe is even more dangerous”.
I can’t understand why some ppl can’t just voice out what they were thinking when you are supposed to be best friends. Why can’t reject openly and on the spot when you don’t want to do it? I am true to myself and others when it comes to this. I won’t say: “See first la. I inform you few days later.” Instead, I will say something like this: “No, I don’t want to join. Sorry. You guys enjoy.” Save everyone’s trouble.
No one needs to wait for your response when you had already decided that you donwanna join in the 1st place. You may say they wanna jaga hati kawan. OK lo, I tak reti jaga hati kawan lo. In fact, I have two other friends who are quite frank in voicing out their opinion and I like to consult them at times due to their truthfulness. We can debate and wash each other kaw kaw but no hard feelings in the end. That’s what I need, so as to allow me to gather different insights on the same thing.
I appreciate truthfulness and at the same time, agree that there has to be some hypocrisy in everyone. But… don’t be so hypocrite can ah? In fact, I was struggling when I started work. I felt awful having to wear different ‘masks’ when dealing with different people but now I got used to it. Cos I established my own way of dealing with ppl. I wear lesser ‘masks’ as I had made it a point that I will do things my way, whether u like it or not. And it sort of gave others a strong statement that I meant what I said. True enough, it worked for me. Lucky me 
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