I always thought I have one. As I do respect the elderly folks a lot. To me, they had sacrificed a lot and had toiled hard all their lives and deserve some respect. But I was proven wrong when my grandma came to stay with us for a couple of weeks after her cataract surgery.
I wasn’t as patient as I thought I would be. Grandma is a bit deaf. In the beginning, I still talk softly but hard lah, since I have to repeat few times. So talk louder loh, but felt like very unfilial, as if being disrecpectful pulak. Dilemma, dilemma!
The elderlies love to talk a lot when someone is listening to them. Principle is simple. You treat the elderlies and the kids the same way. Shower them with attention! But since I am quite busy recently, sometimes I just replied briefly, as if not wanting to make a conversation. In actual sense, I am not a very talkative person and don’t really feel like talking after long tiring days.
I didn’t even manage to provide mom with some living expenses. To make myself feeling worse, I had been working for almost 2.5 years already. Though I did pay for the utility bills and some other bills, I don’t feel filial at all. When will I be able to contribute more?
I was not a good daughter and not a good granddaughter back when my dad and grandpa were still with us. I wouldn’t want to repeat the same mistake with my mom and grandma. The question is: HOW? Seriously, need to spend more time with them. BUT, time is what I am lacking now.
Lame excuse, but it’s true. i can hardly find time for myself to breathe, what’s more with the precarious financial situation I am facing currently. I better make it a point to reduce my outings so that I can spend more time with my family and the same time, reduce my expenditures as well!
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