This is my horoscope reading for today from Friendster:
“The Bottom Line > If you step into the middle of a heated discussion today, you might get burned.
In Detail > You’re reaching a crossroads in your life, and the path you should choose might not be terribly obvious right away. To help make your decision, just think about which direction offers you the least amount of resistance. Now is not the time to seek out conflict or challenges to your ideas, no matter how much they might make you stronger. You deserve a break from that type of energy … you deserve the easier path, so feel free to take it.”
Not to say I believe in horoscopes, suffice to say that sometimes I found words of wisdom which reminds me of something. This one doesn’t really apply to my current situation, but I can still use some part of it. Had finally made a decision. Whether it’s right or wrong, it’s not for me to say. It might change in the future though. But as for now, I am quite sure of my decision. I had been pondering over this, against another choice I had in the past, and was quite wavered until recently.
Either I am being over sensitive or because I care, I realised that too much effort will be involved. It takes both parties to make things work but I couldn’t find a way to relate this to the other party. I always believe that communication is very important and usually I try to make a pleasant conversation with everyone I met. Note that I mentioned I tried. Nevertheless, I couldn’t make myself to spell out the entire truth of my situation to this person. I thought I was comfortable with the changes and the progress and started feeling casual rather than nervous.
Just suddenly, the excitement wasn’t there anymore. I will need some time to let this thing go. But I am glad I had finally made a decision. Never mind the consequence. Kel advised me to do it subtly or just let it die off. Haven’t managed to consult KK but at least the frequent exchange of emails did make me felt relieved. I am always better in writing rather than expressing myself verbally. Perhaps I am being too reserved in expressing my thoughts. Perhaps I am being too cool. But I do have my ego as well. Too much ’perhaps’ here … I couldn’t care less anymore!
I feel at peace with myself currently. Serene is the word! I was slightly disturbed by this before I made my decision. Now that I did that, I only need to refrain myself from taking any other misleading steps. It is really a pain in the ass but perhaps that was because I don’t take this kind of thing for granted. Opportunity only comes once in a while and I am prepared that this won’t come the second time. I think I am still tough enough to live with that!
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