#94 - Wild Thoughts

17.04.2011

Was confused, was afraid, was hesitant. Now? Still the same but with some advise and encouragement from Y, D, and WGang, I think I have decided. Right or wrong I dono. But I appreciate the song Y gave me, the ‘Don’t be afraid’ from D and the reassurance given by Wgang to make me feel better.

P, I have confidence that u can pull this through, as hard and hurtful as it might be, u know that’s the path u must take to prevent urself from being dragged and wasted further. If I can, u can too. Urs is more serious and torturing. Mine is due to being afraid, urs is due to meeting the wrong company. Let’s strive together.

Y, u have oways been my best confidante. U keep on reminding me and u are more sensitive and hence able to pick up things more clearer and better than me. Appreciate the song and support given. U are right, it really sings about my situation currently. It made me realize what I should do. Lucky there is MSN to link us together. Otherwise, I will confuse myself further and drown further. Beh tahan, so dramatic!

D, if u are reading this, u are not too far away but still far enough to make me appreciate all the cruel and evil remarks u made. Best buddies are like that I guess. Creating joy amidst one’s sorrow to cheer one up. Making it sounding less worse than it initially was. Blessing!

S, if only we can be more open with each other. I can feel there is an invisible wall in between us. As much as we want to cross over each other’s path, we can’t seem to find the end of the invisible wall to cross each other’s path. Shall we break the wall? Shall we learn? Shall we practice the ‘Take it or Leave it’ stance?

WGang, our spirit and ‘keh poh chi’ness (or shall I say caring?) will always stay no matter how busy we are. All those exchange of emails to update each other, thanks. Reading through them, makes me realize life is still wonderful.

TGang, been very quiet since half is up North, another half is in Central. Can’t wait for the outing. It had been a long time since. Thanks to N, B and H for the effort. Hope, S, L and P can make it too. 6 musketeers springing back into action, if no one FFK later of course.

KGang, shooting is awesome. Didn’t really play along for quite some time, but I am sure there will be some fun there. Let’s run, let’s fly, let’s shout, let’s…whatever u want. We shall make it happen before 2012 comes.

I am glad I can blog. I am glad I don’t have to keep everything bottled up within myself. I am glad to have few friends worth mentioned here this time. I am glad God is merciful enough to give me this chance. I am glad after all…