20.04.2011
My Friendster horoscope for today:
{The Bottom Line:A bit of stubbornnes can be beneficial — but ignoring reality never is.
In Details: Don’t look now, but one of the most valuable tools you have is getting rusty: your instinct. Why not pull it out and use it a bit more often? Sure, once or twice it might have steered you wrong, but didn’t that detour lead you to something pretty important? Just because your instinct is fallible doesn’t mean it’s worthless. Listen to your gut. No matter where it takes you, it’s the right place — the place you need to get to…}
Hmmm… Macam ada sikit betul…
I don’t know what I want. I hate making choices. I hate being indecisive. Went to Popular while waiting for a friend. Came across a self-help book. Didn’t bother to remember the title and the author of the book. There was a part which caught my attention, regarding being indecisive. It said ‘being indecisive is equivalent to failing’. I had to agree with that. Most often than not, being indecisive actually drags the decision making process to be longer. Something which can be settled within 5 minutes, ended up being solved after 1 hour. How terrible can that be?
Dilemma…dilemma… I write when I am feeling insecure, I write when I am confused, I write when I am being indecisive. I hate making choices. So much so that there is never a moment where I didn’t hesitate before deciding. If only I can be as firm and as sure as I am in life as when I am working. Those who know me well will figure that out. My personality may seemed to be firm but that’s all on the surface only. Deep down, I really feel insecure, helpless. I had put on a good mask to mask off my negative personality. Only when I am alone will I feel like I am not such a hypocrite after all.
Life is so tiring nowadays. Hardly have quality time for my own self. Wonder how did mom managed to pull through her days. I mean her days are even more hectic and tiring than mine. Dedicating her time to her shop, my niece and nephew. Terrible! I said I didn’t want to have any more outings, but it’s the outings which came to find me. I didn’t go and find them. So much so to prove that I just can’t say no. In the end, pocket bore a hole and mentally tired. Nevertheless, they are an avenue to keep in touch. I have no qualms and worries about that. Should arrange my time more effectively I guess.
Got over-tax refund from IRB. It was quite fast. Within a month time I guess. But this time it was deposited into my bank account rather than receiving a cheque. Much more convenient, and much to my liking as well. Offline IMed JS when knew about this. Further correspondence is too cute to be shared here. Also emailed JB since we always share this kind of information. I like JB cos she will always check with me about this kind of stuff, indirectly keeping me in the loop of what I should take note of.
Met WY and WE during weekend. They purposely went to Kulim to find me. Very touched and happy to see them since I haven’t seen WY for quite some time. More than a month perhaps. We always kept in touch via phone calls and email but still, nothing beats meting face-to-face to talk. At least you get to see the other party and get to know their well being from their own mouths. WE is always an informative guy and he can talk about almost everything. I don’t mind sounding stupid in front of him. He will never belittle you. Perhaps some sarcasm meant as joke lah. WY is lucky to find such a good guy like him. Very loving pair of couples, they are.
I have this habit where I am not used to being treated by friend. Somehow felt compelled to split the bills rather than letting someone pay the whole bill. Though sometimes budget is really tight already, will still insist to share the bill. Due to ego perhaps. Mau jaga air muka punya pasal, poket merana. As long as I am happy lah. But one thing for sure, I am always happy to give others a treat. Don’t ask me why, it just feels nice. Ego again? I don’t know.
Moved to rented room last week. Can save up more travel time but I do miss home. I miss mom’s cooking, I miss my niece and my nephew. I miss my Internet connection. No intention to subsribe to broadband yet as I am not sure whether I will stay long in this room or not. Without Internet connection, I can’t blog impromptu, I can’t chat via MSN with my close confidantes when I faced some problems or some dilemmas. Over here in this new place, there are many aunties around. The house where I rent the room from, is a gathering place for those housewives where they sing karaoke and learn English. I admire their learning spirit.
One thing I don’t like here is there are always jets which seemed like they are flying just above your head. The sound was deafening and irritating. Not once a night, it’s at least 3 times a night. What’s with all these flying anyway huh? I thought there is some ruling which forbids jets or aircrafts from flying too near residential area, in view of noise pollution? Totally a noise pollution I tell you. Lucky I don’t really sleep early, or else… I am quite sure that even a dead log like me will wake up all of a sudden, due to this undesirable sound generated. Other than that, everything is still tolerable.
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> 24.04.2011 (leeping)
next time outing i treat u haha
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